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Huckleberry Finn

    In the story of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain the problems of the world are satirized greatly, sometimes in obvious and not so obvious ways. Although the most obvious criticism is of slavery there is far more to this story of freedom and friendship than initially means the eye, the following is a discussion of such.

     Tradition is under great scrutiny in this story, a good example of this is the feud that Buck dies in. The fact that the reason that the fight  is going  on is no longer known just adds to the fact that it is in fact pointless and endless in nature. Buck before his death in a conversation explains to Huck what is a feud by saying
"a feud is this way. A man has a quarrel with another man, and kills him; then that other mans brother kills him; then the other brothers, on both sides, goes for one another, then the cousins chip in- and by-and-by everybody's killed off and there ain't no more feud. But its kind of slow and takes a long time." (pg. 127). Another example early on in the book is now he has to "Dress Civilized" this is an example of how society and the world around states what to do and hold reign over his as well as many other peoples lives,  stated as "...I got a good going-over in the morning, from Miss Watson, on account of my clothes" on (pg 14).

    Religion is tested greatly in the story of Huckleberry Finn, without explanation everyone expects him  to accept religion and understand it, as well as why he is worshiping a God. This is show through Huck stating "I says to myself if anyone can get anything they pray for, why don't Decon Winn get back the money he lost on pork? Why can't the widow get back her silver snuff-box that was stole?Why can't Miss Watson fat up? No, says I to myself, there ain't nothing in it."(pg. 14) Yet again t his is  shown when Huck goes to church during the feud and everyone says how wonderful the sermon on "Brotherly Love" was,  yet the feud continues, everyone also brings there guns into the church, the hypocrisy of this is astonishing.

pg 129

pg 204

The meaning of this story is to convey many things one of the largest being the hypocrisy of the world around us. Even in todays world this hypocrisy exists and will never subside in any form, in fact it may seem more likely for it to grow. Religion, tradition and racism will be constants within our society and the actual decision as to whether it is right or wrong is seeming let to us but society has already made up  its mind.
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Where to begin?
 More so where to end?
When dealing with nothing both are difficult descisions.

Nothings easy anymore and nor is anything hard

What the hell an I talking about you ask?


Well now aren't I the man with the microphone.

To put it simply I broke up with my boyfriend.
    -Although this is
not where the trouble begins I would like to say it first.
It was a tough thing to do but I did it I should feel better and relieved that I'm no longer lieing to someone I care about and that I'm not lieing in general correct?


Incorrect. Lies. Conspiracy.

He said that he was now going to fail. He barely had motivation to pass before and why couldn't a fucking wait. He said he still loves me. And he said that if I was dumping him for his temper I would never find anyone. He said I don't know how much he loves me. and that I was fucking screwing him over And said he would be fine if the relationship went on forever.

 I said frankly "Well I wouldn't be. I said from the begining that this isa a highschool relationship and it has less than a 5% chance of making it beyond that, I exsplained this to you from day one. I never mentioned forever I didn't want forever" But apparently I didn't fucking hug him enough and now he has no one. Apparently I didn't walk over to his house enough. Apparently I was a horrible terrible human being and then I screwed him the fuck over.

Then he went on to say how he originally thought girlfriends were a waste of money and time and this was. and that he loved me and he didn't know how my feelings could fade. He asked me to reconsider, and that he couldn't handle this happeneing again, I said my mind was already made on this but and that he said not to be with him just for his sake before and to hate me if it helps just get finished. I told him if I was with him until the end of the year this would just happen again.

Bitter Pills: He Can't Swallow

The next day He comes and brings me a cookie as he does everyday I think to myself its because he wants to assure me that he still wants to be friends and he hangs out with the same group as I do with Strikes me as a tad odd, But I ignore it.

He puts his arm around me.

I'm dumb founded.
What just happened?
Did Last night happen?
Did anything happen?
I sit there and for the remander of the day am in a somewhat dazed state doubting wether or not I'm even consious.

He wouldn't really Ignore what just happened purely for his benifit... correct?
He wouldn't do that hes better than that... correct?
This isn't real I must be in a dream... Nothings real I must be dreaming.

Revelation.

I'm awake. Hes really doing this. He really didn't respect my descision and completely ignored it, as if nothing happened.

He even invited himself to the movies with me and Tyler and some of my other friends and told me to call to tell him when we were going.

I wanted to scream,
I wanted to cry,
I wanted to  ____ him,
But I was silent.
How could you?

Hes been messaging me all weekend. I haven't been able to talk to him. He called me 5 times last night I couldn't answer.
He makes me ill.
I can't talk to him.
I'll continue to sit there and smile for him only so he can't blame his ulimate failure on me. I'll sit there until May 18th [When Senoir projects are due] And I'll wait . I'll be an emotionless doll for him.



But I'm not forgiving him.
[And I don't think I ever really will]




 


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Its been a bit odd everything has seemed very calm and yet... I feel as if I've been struck by a large heavy object. My mom states that she thinks  I should get therapy she wants me to get it mainly because my grades won't go up and I according to her "Live in a fantasy world" and dispite the fact that I don't really agree with her reasoning I'm glad she atleast cares that much. My reason is that I'm in a constant state of semi-depression and nothing seems to make me happy, the fact that I'm never satisfied with the way I look or who I am, And that I always thing I'm a terrible person and yet at the same time I think I'm not. I find myself to be totally worthless and don't know how to stop it. eh I'm off to night school I'll finish rambling later
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Profile complete :D Everyone be amazed.


Ashton is now On far too many Blogs and websites Heres the sites I'm on [Or at least the ones I check frequently]

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